Citizen Soldier ~ I’m Not Okay

Tonight the monsters in my head

Are screaming so damn loud

But I built walls so high

So they never even make a sound

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It’s a mask, it’s a lie

It’s the only home I’ve ever known

‘Cause being who I really am

Has only left me more alone

I am not okay

And I need you to see it

I have so much to say

And no one to hear it

The reason I keep quiet

With so much at stake

I always feel like a burden, let it silence me

You’ll never understand

Why it’s so hard to say

I’m not okay

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I wish I had a scar

Had a bruise on the surface, any kind of proof

That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse

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My life’s invisible abuse

I’m either judged or have to hide

The only symptom you can see

Is I don’t wanna be alive

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I am not okay

And I need you to see it

I have so much to say

And no one to hear it

The reason I keep quiet

With so much at stake

I always feel like a burden, let it silence me

You’ll never understand

Why it’s so hard to say

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I’ll never have the words, I can’t explain this hell

But what if it kills me

If I keep it to myself?

To myself

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I am not okay

And I need you to see it

I have so much to say

And no one to hear it

I am not okay

I am not okay

I’m never safe

It’s not a phase

If I finally break

Would you still stay?

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Tonight the monsters in my head

Are screaming so damn loud

Songwriters: Juan Rivero / Kooper Hanosky / Matthew Duffney / Kyle Persell / Jacob Segura

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